The Confession of a Fallen Angel

The Most Perfect Creature

The Confession of a Fallen Angel

“There is little enmity against Satan and his works, because there
is so great ignorance concerning his power and malice, and the
vast extent of his warfare against Christ and His Church. Multitudes
are deluded here.
They do not know that their enemy is a mighty general, who controls
the minds of evil angels, and that with well-matured plans
and skilful movements he is warring against God to prevent the
salvation of souls.
Among professed Christians, and even among ministers of the
gospel, there is heard scarcely a reference to Satan, except perhaps
an incidental mention in the pulpit. They overlook the evidences
of his continual activity and success; they neglect the many
warnings of his subtlety; they seem to ignore his very existence.”
Yes, a lot of people don’t know this... And they do not know it because
I did not want them to know. Up until now, my work has been
done in complete secrecy. I work best when people are not aware of
my existence, my intentions and my modus operandi. Now, however,
I decided to change that. From now on, you will know about me.
Do you think that what you are doing and what have you been
doing is the result of your own thinking and intentions? No. I control
you. I misled you in almost every aspect of your life. You are filled with
wrong prejudices. You have misplaced priorities in life. I’ve imposed
false life attitudes and beliefs on you. You are in complete darkness.
My victory is even greater knowing that I’ve managed to do it all, lea -
ving you in belief that you are so smart and wise, that you’re free to
do what ever you want, that you have the opportunity to enjoy life,
and that everything you’ve accomplished is the result of your creativity.
Keeping you in ignorance is no longer interesting to me. I’ve rea -
lized that I managed to humiliate the mankind so much that even when
you find out almost everything about me, and once you’ve realized
that everything you do is actually a result of what I have imposed on
you, you still won’t have the strength to change anything.
I will go so far and claim that you’ll be able to realize, if you read
carefully, how to become free, but your ego will be my ally once again,
and will continue to hold you under my control.
Are you ready? Are you ready to meet the being that is the cause
of everything evil on the planet Earth? Are you ready to understand
that even if you think that you don’t have anything to do with me, you
actually belong and serve me? Are you ready to realize that I have decided
to rule your life? No? Nobody is ready for that. However, the facts
cannot be changed.
You think that you’re protected from me because you are religious?
Because you are a Christian? A good one, perhaps? You think that I
can’t manipulate you because you aren’t religious? Because you do not
believe in the Creator? Because you don’t believe that I exist?
Start reading and find out how I tricked you in so many ways. Find
out where and when you willingly crossed to my side. I will show you
how I made your life miserable and how I managed to make you believe
that you are happy. You’ll realize that problems you now have are
not result of random coincidences, but in fact are repercussions of my
carefully executed plan.
You think this is funny? Just keep on reading and I promise you
that I will be the one who will laugh last, at the end of this book, as
well as the end of your life.
The first part of this book will follow biblical chronology. If you
haven’t read the Bible, all the better for me.
The second part of the book is the one where you play the main
role... under my direction.
Lucifer

The Most Perfect Creature

Creator made me as the greatest created being ever created. Wisdom,
beauty and skills that I was granted were beyond anything ever
seen before. Other creatures admired me. I was awarded the highest
possible role that a creature can have – I was a Cherub. This is the
highest order of angels, who are in the immediate vicinity of the Creator.
I enjoyed observing how other creatures loved me and I enjoyed
showing them my beauty, wisdom and skills... but something was mis -
sing. Although they were delighted by my presence, and although they
truly loved me and obeyed me with joy, the spark in their eyes while
they would observe the Creator and His Son was missing.
I was then consumed by an unknown feeling. I didn’t know what
to do and how to behave. In spite of the perfect order that the universe
was in, I started to feel something opposite of pleasure. There wasn’t
a word for it at that time, so I called it dissatisfaction. I tried to figure
out what I was missing so that I could win over all the creatures completely,
but I was just.... perfect... Isn’t that by it self enough to be
appreciated and respected more than I’m now? I observed assembled
creatures, the angels around the Creator’s Throne. I was trying to figu -
re out what He offered them that I couldn’t. What did He give them?
Life, love, law, order, beauty.... Law?
Law. I thought of it as a something that was limiting our freedom.
How can we be happy if we are bounded by some rules and commandments?
The Creator called it “The Law of Freedom”. What kind of freedom
requires obedience to anything? At that time, nobody thought the
same way as I did, so I didn’t have anyone to share an opinion with,
and I began to experience something that pushed me away from the
Creator and his Son. They noticed that something was wrong with me.
They tried to talk with me about it, but I didn’t have anything to tell
them, because even I didn’t know what was happening to me.
I decided to share my thoughts with those angels who showed
greater appreciation to me. They were also confused. I tried to explain
to them how it would be better if there was no Law. Suddenly, I reali -
zed that I could use this statement to get what I want – the spark in
their eyes when they look at me. I would become their liberator. I
would set them free from the bondage of the Law. I talked with other
beings, suggesting what I wanted them to conclude. It was surprisingly
easy to convert them to my side. They all loved and trusted me.
I went a step further. I started lying to win them over to my side.
It was so simple. Up to then, no one ever said anything but the truth.
Therefore, they believed everything I told them. Initially, I felt strange
and uncomfortable when lying, but the results I’ve achieved in their
affection towards me, overcame the feeling of discomfort. After all, I
intended to explain later that this was the quicker way towards freedom.
The Creator warned me where this way of thinking and action will
lead me. He begged me to stop doing what I was doing and return to
where I was. However, I did not let Him brainwash me like the others.
I didn’t listen to Him. Soon enough, He told me that I can no longer
perform the duties I did up to that moment. I got one more proof that
showed that His principles aren’t fair, and that He was trying to humili -
ate me, the most perfect creature. New feelings flooded me one after
another. I couldn’t name them, but they’ve taken me over completely.
I was afraid where these feelings will take me, but I couldn’t let the
angels I won over see even a glimpse of self-doubt on me – the migh -
tiest angel.
The more I persisted in doing what I was doing, the more I realized
how powerless the Creator was to do anything to me. However, He is
the giver of life and he could just take it from me, but I realized that
He wouldn’t do that. This would only prove that I was right. That encouraged
me even more. I realized that He has limitations I don’t. I
decided to use that to my advantage.
More and more angels joined me and stood by my side. We accused
those who warned us and didn’t want to join us that they serve the
Creator out of fear, even though they have free will.
I have to admit, I was a bit surprised by the Creator’s reaction. If I
was at His place, I would immediately remove the one that spreads
such discontent among my creatures. Others would then, perhaps,
serve me out of fear, but at least I would make sure that there won’t
be similar attempts in the future, because I wouldn’t let the riot escalate
like the Creator did.
Instead of trying to do everything that He could to stop me, I heard
that the Creator and His Son are planning to create a new planet that
will inhabit all kind of living beings, as well as a being in their image,
as the apex of creation.
That got me pretty excited. Apart from kicking me out my position,
He seemed to ignore me and act like I do not even exist; as if I don’t
represent any threat to His majesty what so ever.
A new feeling then overcame me. Today it is known as – anger.

The Earth – My property

That was just what I needed, a new planet and its habitants. All
the other worlds were already biased against me.
I carefully observed what was going on. The Creator decided to
create and then populate planet Earth. I thought I could perhaps learn
how to create life if I watch while Creator does it. It was an incredible
experience. When the creation was finished, I observed all these living
beings, and none of them were similar to the Creator. I saw that the
Son was creating something out of earth dust, but I couldn’t come
closer. I then saw Him giving life to what he previously formed – a
beautiful creature in His own image. Shortly after, He caused a deep
sleep to fall upon the creature, and then used the creature’s rib to form
another being of same kind, but of opposite sex.
I figured that if I somehow manage to win over these beautiful
creatures, my victory would be complete. However, I just couldn’t catch
a moment when they were alone, to approach them in private. I was
disappointed to find out that they were already familiar with what I
was doing, so the chance of approaching them openly was out of question.
I had to think of something. It was very important for me to have
someone created in the Creator’s own image on my side.
I started discovering that I can use my skills for other causes, apart
from those originally intended. I realized that the creatures on Earth
have fewer abilities then us angles, so I tried to take advantage of that
fact and use my skills to win over these newly created beings.
I decided to use the snake – the most beautiful creature at that
moment - as a medium. I figured I could use the body and the mind
of snake to speak through it. I wondered if I could do the same with
humans.
However, the main question was: what reason could I use to approach
them. What could I use as my advantage? Of course, something
concerning the Law. I realized that they have the tree of the
knowledge of good and evil. The Creator placed it there as the only
obstacle that could test the obedience of created beings. Why would
the man be deprived of knowledge about what is good and what is
evil? Isn’t that an advantage? How can you defend against something
you do not even know? What is evil anyway? Nobody ever heard of
something like that up to that moment. Why wouldn’t we be able to
have a chance to know what is evil? Aren’t we beings with free will
that can make their own decisions?
If I had approached them directly, the prejudice they had concer -
ning me would hinder my efforts. Even though I could see that He was
sad when he was explaining them what was going on, I was sure that
they were being manipulated. I had to tell them the truth about me.
Eve was alone. She seemed somewhat weaker and less decisive
than Adam. I decided to approach her. While she was passing by me,
I spoke to her. She suspected nothing. The snake’s body was a perfect
cover. I started the conversation by deliberately misleading her with
false information. Even though I exactly knew what was forbidden to
them, I asked her if it was true that they aren’t allowed to take fruits
from all the trees. She corrected me by explaining that they are allowed
to eat fruits from every tree, except from the tree of the knowledge of
good and evil, in which case they would die. Up to that moment, nobody
dared to do such a thing, so I decided to try to make her do that.
Just to see what will happen. I told her that’s not true, that they won’t
die, but, on the contrary, they you will become gods, knowing good
and evil. I asked her what could possibly be wrong with that. Wouldn’t
that be another advantage, yet another addition to their perfection?
She also never heard of anything untruthful. How could a God’s Creature
try to deceive one another, especially in such a loving and harmonic
environment? Her eyes gave her away. I knew what was going
to happen. She gazed upon the beautiful fruit, thinking about it. She
probably reckoned how death doesn’t really exist and that I was probably
right. She approached the tree and took the fruit. Nothing happened.
She started eating it. Still nothing happened. Then Adam
arrived. Seeing what Eve has done, he froze. He knew what was going
to happen. I tried to enter his mind like I did with snake, but I couldn’t.
However, I was able to suggest to him what to do and feel. I tried to
convince him that his live without Eve would be pointless and that he
should share her faith. And I did it. Being fully aware what he was
doing, knowing what awaits him if he takes the fruit, he ate it.
In that very moment, the light that surrounded him – disappeared.
At the same time, I realized that all the strength they had to resist me
disappeared. They still had appearance similar to that of Creator, but
they lost the strength He granted them. They lost it because they broke
the convent they had with the Creator. In fact, they aren’t such a great
master-piece as I believed earlier. The whole newly created planet was
now mine, with all of its residents. I started to like humans, and I felt
that they need me to protect them.
Soon enough, I heard the Creator coming. I didn’t want to leave.
They were on my side now and I laid claim on them. I stayed near
them so that I could help them defend and justify themselves. After
all, this was all new to them. The Creator knew what they had done.
He knew they couldn’t undo what they already did. But I was right.
They didn’t die even though the Creator promised them that they will.
He asked Adam what he has done. I suggested to him that he blames
Eve. She was very surprised to hear that. I suggested her to blame
the snake. That way, nobody was to blame, except the snake. The Creator
than cursed the snake, taking away its legs and wings, but then
He said something that confused me. The Creator said that he puts
enmity between its offspring and Eve’s. At first, I didn’t realize what
that meant, but it turned out that He referred to me and my offspring
– the people that serve me. I was furious when I realized that the
human race, despite disobedience, will still have the possibility to resist
me. I saw how much the Creator cared about these pathetic beings.
But, when will they die? Why haven’t they died yet?
It turned out my guess was good. The Creator wasn’t telling the
truth. He wasn’t true to what He said. If He was, he should’ve taken
their lives right away. This way, it seemed to me that He changed His
own Law, which was supposedly unchangeable, so they could be
speared.
But... what are they doing?
The Creator is showing Adam what to do. Adam catches a lamb,
slaughters it, peels its skin and does something strange, some kind of
ritual... what does this mean? I had to see what will happen. The Creator
explained to them that there is only one way to fix what they did.
The Creator had to be just and merciful at the same time, and that’s
why He tells them that He Himself will pay the penalty for sin, for the
disobedience of Law. He will die through His Son so that the man could
live. He will be merciful and He will forgive them for their offence, but
will still be just and take the penalty – death - for their deeds by Himself.
That’s why they didn’t die right away.
I couldn’t believe what I was hearing. How can He, who claims to
be immortal, how could he die? Why would He even do something like
that for a couple of wretches who didn’t even obey him? Because He
loved them? I was already sick of that word, because it started ruining
all my plans.
But I won’t let that happen. This planet is mine. They obey me now.
There is no possibility of return and forgiveness. Fortunately, humans
didn’t die and they still had the access to the tree of life, whose fruits
the Creator used to grant them immortality, and I can still use them
and their descendents to achieve my goals: a Kingdom with greater
freedom, a Kingdom without a Law, more appreciated than the Creator’s.
I watched as the Creator takes them out of garden of Eden.
Why is He doing this? He then placed two angels with flaming swords
so that people won’t be able to live eternally in the state I brought
them into. My hatred towards the Creator and mankind increased ra -
pidly. The humans were too weak and too limited. I couldn’t do anything
useful with them. They couldn’t fly, communicate through
tho ughts or travel from one dimension to another... They are useless
and pathetic. And yet still, the Creator gave them the possibility to resist
me, even though I was thousands of times more powerful then
them. He placed His force in them, because they couldn’t resist me by
themselves.
I had to hinder and occupy mankind with everything that I could
think of so that they won’t have the possibility to resist me. And to accomplish
that, I had to separate them from the Creator as much as
possible. After all, I was doing this for their own good, for their complete
freedom and liberation from Law.

The Beginnings of Mankind

The Creator wasn’t intending to leave this planet to me even though
I had supporters here. To be honest, they weren’t on my side any
more, because they felt cheated. They repented, but nonetheless, their
disobedience to the Creator made them rebels, like I was. I tried to
get them to join me, but they remained persistent in their repentance,
receiving force necessary to resist all my efforts to get them back.
However, the time was on my side. I heard when the Creator said that
they will have offspring. This is my chance.
I wanted this planet. I realized that I should try to convince people
to do everything against the Law so that the Creator would leave them
to me completely. The Creator doesn’t want to reside where the Law
isn’t obeyed and where, what He calls sin, rules.
I started studying humans and their weaknesses. I had to find a
way to distant them from the Creator’s Law, but also making them believe
they are enjoying that. I had to make them live free, to do what
they consider right – to do what I think is right.
The two sons are born, Cain and Abel. As soon as they’ve grown
up a bit, I saw that Abel could cause a lot of trouble to me. He obeyed
his parents and firmly decided to keep the Creator’s Law. Cain was different.
He didn’t paid attention to what his parents told him, so I decided
to use this weakness to win him over. Abel presented his
offerings very zealously, often listening and talking to God. He knew
the only chance for a man to get back into convent with the Creator is
to accept His death as a penalty for his sins.
I wasn’t able to convince them to stop presenting offerings, but I
could try to twist its purpose a bit. Instead of presenting their offerings
as a remembrance to the Creator’s sacrifice, I suggested that a sacrificial
system is just a way of appeasing Him and sedating his anger.
They had to believe that the Creator hates and condemns them. And
I managed to do that, partially. I suggested to Cain that he can offer
anything as sacrifice. Why would he buy his offerings? He can offer
whatever he has at the moment. That is also enough. It’s important
that he is at least partially obedient. Then something interesting happened.
When the Creator responded favorably to Abel’s sacrifice, and
ignored Cain’s offerings because of his disobedience, I saw that Cain
felt something very similar to what I personally feel. Injured pride,
envy, anger... The door of his mind was wide open to me.
I already hated Abel because I wasn’t able to affect him. His faith
protected him from me. Perhaps I could try to turn his brother against
him. To hurt him through his brother that was under my control. I
therefore suggested to Cain that he fiercely hits him. I wondered what
will happen to a person after he was strongly hit. Completely overtaken
by what I suggested, he did it. He struck his own brother. And behold,
Abel died. The breath of life the Creator granted him simply came out
of his body. He was un-alive. I reckoned that this was the end of the
Creator’s patience. He won’t tolerate this any more. He might punish
Cain for what he done by taking away his life, but He’ll leave the planet
to me. But he showed affection and love to such a creature... to a murderer.
If Cain showed that he wanted forgiveness, the Creator would’ve
forgiven him. I realized that whatever happened, the Creator won’t
give up this planet.
I was overcome with rage. My plans to rule the earth and build a
better kingdom became ever more complicated. And now, instead of
attempting to create my own kingdom, I wanted to complicate the Creator’s
plans. It was clear to me that I couldn’t win the battle for the
kingdom, but I still could win the battle for man. The Creator had other
intentions. The Creator wanted to bring them back to himself, to enable
them to return to where they were - in immortality, in the unity with
Him. But I wanted to keep them under my control.
Of course, I can’t win if I battle openly. What could I do? Tell them
that it’s better to stay by my side so that they would eventually die,
instead of being obedient to the Creator and living eternally in happiness
and harmony. No, I had to do that without them being aware of
what is happening. I had to blur the idea of eternal values. I had to
present the Creator as Someone who punishes unjustly, as someone
who hates and condemns them, as someone who took their immortali -
ty unfairly.

My advantage was that I didn’t have to win over their love and attention.
It would be difficult to do so. They would soon realize who the
cause of their suffering is. But I don’t need their love. I only want them
to obey me and worship me. I don’t care if they love me or don’t.
I figured out that all I need to do is to divert their full attention to
themselves. That’s the quickest way to separate them from the Creator.
I need to work on their self-confidence. Thus, they will stop relying on
the Creator’s power and try to live on their own. And then...
Have you ever manipulated an ant? It thinks it can go wherever it
wants, but, if you put a hand in front of it, it has to turn. And by doing
so, with more or less manipulation, direct it to where you wanted it to
be. Or, if it didn’t obey you, simply crush him with your thumb.
And this is a man full of self-confidence, compared to me – that
small, helpless ant. Even better, it is quite easy to manipulate a man
to make his own pleasure and comfort the sole purpose of his life –
regardless of how much it could cost him.